Name: Bloom by Nikki Rae
Date Published: February 28, 2018
Genre: Dark, Erotica, BDSM
Goodreads Rating: 4.11/5 Stars
How I acquired it: I received an eARC from the publisher via NetGalley for an honest review. This in no way, influences my opinion below.
Given to The Grimm Order as an infant, Fawn was raised in a world shaped by the rich and powerful. When she was sold at the age of nine to a Suitor, Fawn believed he would protect her from the “Mainworld”, where those who know nothing about the Order live. Living with the cruel man who bought her freedom, she finds just what the Order is about: money, control, and status for the Owner and humiliation and abuse for those they own.
Unwilling to accept the expectations of being Owned, Fawn goes from golden girl to maid, content to live in the shadows of the Order as long as she isn’t Owned again.
It’s been ten years since she disgraced her former Owner’s name, and now the brooding Frenchman Elliot Lyon wants her. Master Lyon is kind, smart, and unlike any man she’s met. She doesn’t want to admit it to herself, but Fawn is drawn to him despite constantly planning her next escape.
Even the prettiest flowers have thorns, and Master Lyon is hiding secrets that will uproot everything she thinks she knows about him.
Reading Level: ★★★★
My Overall Rating: ★★★★ 1/2
Confession – I put off writing this review for several weeks. This was the darkest book I’ve ever read and I had so many different (and conflicting) emotions while reading. When I finished the book I struggled between 5+ stars and 1.
Trigger Warning – Sexual Assault and Abuse
From the very first sentence, Nikki Rae pulled me into this book. This book is written from Fawn’s POV and you really feel like you’re in her head. You become a part of her world. After every chapter I had to find out what came next. I needed to know what happened to Fawn and how her story ended.
The plot is very unique. Fawn has spent the past 10 years keeping her head down and staying hidden. She knows what it’s like to be owned and she never wants to go through that again. In comes Elliot Lyon. He buys Fawn and now she has a new owner. However, he is unlike any other she has seen or heard of. He is kind. He is understanding. But he is still an owner. He still can make Fawn do anything he wants and she has no choice.
“I didn’t allow myself dreams. They were unrealistic and unfair. Cruel. There was enough cruelty in my life; I didn’t need to inflict it upon myself. It was difficult at first, telling my brain to shut off so completely that even when I wasn’t in control of it I could rely on the images within to be shrouded in black. They say everyone dreams and they just don’t remember. I don’t think my mind is capable of conjuring up images—nightmares or pleasant dreams. Not anymore. Reality was a nightmare. Dreams didn’t come true. Once you knew that things couldn’t get any better and that things were and will be the scariest you could ever experience, the imagination simply died. So instead of dreaming, I planned.”
Her whole life, Fawn has come to terms with never having/feeling love. She is a slave and that’s all she ever will be. She’s hoping to spend the rest of her life in her cell of a room. Until Elliot Lyon enters her life she’s never known what the feeling could be like. Within every chapter you learn something new about Fawn and Elliot even though they try extremely hard to hide themselves from each other. They are both extremely strong willed and because of that they seem to connect on a different level.
Like many other people have said, I did not expect the twist at the end. It made sense but that doesn’t take away any of the shock. I was lucky to have the second one right away that I could continue reading to find out what happened next but it was definitely a cliff hanger and one of the best I’ve ever read.
I had a hard time with this review because of the subject matter. As a reader I wanted to root for Elliot and Fawn but as a person from the outside I realized how crazy that is since Fawn is a slave. Sex trafficking is a very intense subject and this book brings that subject right into view.